Thursday, June 16, 2011
always breaking
sometimes the pain is so unbearable i can feel my mind slipping away and i feel myself losing control. i stand in front of the mirror and i am crying so hard that i can't catch a breath, i'm literally doubling over. i force myself to keep eye contact with myself in the mirror, i memorize the planes and angles of my face, the way the tears travel around all the contours. i memorize the sadness, i will call this image back later in life before i ever let myself fall in love again.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
STRENGTH
i took out my battle axe
i'm hacking at everything around me to get to the truth
the only way through is to fight, to carve a new path
i'm cultivating this into strength
i'm wielding it
i may bend, but i will never fucking fall.
i'm hacking at everything around me to get to the truth
the only way through is to fight, to carve a new path
i'm cultivating this into strength
i'm wielding it
i may bend, but i will never fucking fall.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
solution?
I wrote this one year ago today:
"sometimes i just need to smoke a joint. i feel better now, now i can just chill and stop freakin' out.
i used to hate it but i dont know if i can ever stop now. my life is honestly better now that i do this all the time again, i mean i'm in a better place emotionally.
it's a temporary solution for depression."
so much for temporary haha
"sometimes i just need to smoke a joint. i feel better now, now i can just chill and stop freakin' out.
i used to hate it but i dont know if i can ever stop now. my life is honestly better now that i do this all the time again, i mean i'm in a better place emotionally.
it's a temporary solution for depression."
so much for temporary haha
poetry
oh to know what i know. such an extravagant show. you did everything you could, and you hoped i never would, but now i finally know.
Monday, April 4, 2011
a light of my own
there's some bright light that's gone from me now, and re-ignition is impossible. how everything falls, sliding down the walls. i used to be so sure. i had a rope, in the middle of this mess. it didn't matter how bad i was bleeding, that rope held strong and stretched forth into the blackness that is my future. if only i had a little light of my own, maybe i could've seen. maybe i could've seen the rope fraying in the darkness before it snapped and sent me spinning off.
i've been living in this nothing for weeks and i'm starting to swallow it.
i've been living in this nothing for weeks and i'm starting to swallow it.
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