360

what if i could find a way to turn everything around right NOW. what if i never endured the heart crushing sadness again? what if i did a 360, what if i was the happiest girl in the world?

i'm really trying. i don't want to hurt the people around me anymore. they suffer with me when i suffer and i know this. specifically mom and justin.

right now when i envision my future, it's exciting. i see myself with justin, happy, building our life together. but i'm up right now. i need to find a way to prevent myself from crashing back down. but it's like a tidal wave, huge and invasive, and absolutely impossible to stop.