that's a good look. better yet, a hood look.

i am seriously so happy it almost hurts. everything keeps getting better and better and better and better, i don't get it. every single day is incredible and blows my mind. i'm feeling so much love i don't even know what to do with myself. it's so different from anything i've felt before. i know i'm being all mushy and gross but like.. i dunno i'm just really stoked. i've never been so sure of something in my life, and i've never felt so loved and beautiful and important and perfect.

ahhh i could explode. <3

yee i'm tiger woods.

i feel a lot happier now. work is overwith and now i'm off for 3 days, which i'm really stoked about. tomorrow i am cleaning and hopefully it will be nice out so i can tan outside for a little bit. friday chantal is coming over to hang out with justin and i which i am stoked for, we are gonna chill here and have a few drinks and whatever. i haven't hung out with her in ages so i'm really excited. :)

saturday ashley and i are driving down to ridgetown to check out a few places and visit the college and stuff. i'm pretty sure we already know where we are going to live but we have some more things to talk out. the house is really nice that we want. :)

so in other news one of my very best friends alysha rutledge is moving away to BC for 4 months. she leaves in 2 weeks and she is coming back right when i am leaving for ridgetown, so i am going to miss her x a billion. seriously. it sucks. but it's going to be really good for her and she's going to make a lot of money and have tons of fun.

what else is there to update about... umm justin and i are planning a trip for this summer, we don't know where yet but we've been checking out lots of islands and stuff, we wanna go somewhere hot. i'm excited. we are doing so well and he makes me so happy it's like pretty ridiculous. yay :)

so okay those were all happy posts.. which is good! and i think that's all i have to say. at least for now. have a great night everyone :)

ps jessie i know youre reading this .. we gotta make a day to hang out okay? i miss you n jon.

dangerous

i get so angry that i am shaking. i fucking hate dumb bitches. i am fucking seeething.

i can feel you need me, it feels so good to meee

i am so stupidly crazy in love. last time i felt this much, was 5 years ago when i was with him. this whole thing blows my mind.

do what you feel now.

i really like getting super baked and playing neopets. it's like, the happiest, most relaxing part of my day. and i have justin behind me playing xbox so if i get bored of neopets i get to go snuggle and fall asleep. this is so much better than being at work!

open fire

so i'm sitting here playing neopets and watching justin play xbox and listening to silverchair. we just scraped our buster and smoked all the crystals and now i don't even know what is happening.

i'm excited to snuggle up and watch a movie and fall asleep. :) <3

i went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed!

i don't know, i feel disgusting. i need to like, cleanse my body. i've only smoked half a cigarette in the last 3 days so that's good, but i haven't been eating very well and i seriously smoke so much weed, my lungs don't even take full breaths in anymore hah. i just feel like i need to lose ten pounds and get a tan and teeth whitened and i'll feel a whole lot better.


you know, it's funny how when you really, really love someone, you'd do anything for them and not think twice about it. things you thought you wouldn't ever want to do but when it's making them happy, you just don't care. i feel like we are very balanced and we both do a lot for each other and try to keep each other happy. i guess that's all that matters.