it can't stop, no it won't stop

chill night. worked, saw a movie. it was cute and made me love love for a little while. wanted to hit up merchant but didn't. i'm at home now, i'm going to sleep alone tonight for the first time in a very long while. i don't think i'll sleep much.

i think i'm too ... what's the word. full of empathy. i can too easily imagine how other people are feeling, and then when i see bad things happen to other people, i get depressed about it.

i'm smoking cigarettes and singing sad songs. once in a while i just need a lonely night like this.

tomorrow i'll get drunk and be happy.

shove her over railing

i never blog anymore, i'm always busy. this is the first time in so long that i'm even using my own lap top, i always use justin's now.

well, same old. i've been partying. i think i'm going to cancel my Rusk show because i have too much to do. tomorrow i am packing. im moving so soon and im so not ready. i also have to study for this test im writing at ridgetown a week from tomorrow.

on the bright side, i got accepted to st. clair, which was my second choice. its 5 hours away. ugghhh.

i just dont wanna leave now, now that i have something to leave behind. or someone i should say. but i have to. so it sucks. siiiigh.

tonight justin's coming here, i don't really know what we're doing. probably stay in, we are both tired and stressed. i could use some release if you know what i'm sayinnn.

i hung out with blake for a bit today again, i'm going with him to justin's cd release on friday. whatever happens it's going to be a good night. i just have a feeling.

anyways im going to go shower now and get ready so i can be pretty. i like to be pretty. it makes me happy.

theeeee end.

eyes on fiiiire

i just got home from work and i'm cold. when i can feel my body again i'm going to shower and get ready. justin and i are going to return all my empties because i have like 5 million. then buying alcohol and drinking it, i dont really know what we are doing, hanging out with reece and them, i dont care what happens tonight i just wanna drink haha.

i'm very happy right now. i like my life and the way things are going. i feel like february is flying by though and i have a lot to do.

i did a kinda racy photoshoot last night and i'm excited to see the results haha.

i'm eating timbits for dinner. ohh well. not much to say today, or i'm too lazy to say it all right now. i hope everyone has a good weekend and a happy valentine's day ;) i know i willll! :)

=)

its bed time and im not alone. i love this.

yeppp

classy party. me tony bryan justin and ryan. we look soo class. and drinkin. this is fun. i like life. :)

had the worst day ever, just one of those days where everything went wrong. but its all good now, i gotta glass full of vodka and frozen fruit, it makes everything all better.


<3

ughh

i procrastinate so bad. i need to be cleaning for my party tomorrow and instead i'm eating plain raw vegetables and browsing the latest fashion news. there is a new brand that is coming soon called So-So Happy and i can't WAIT for it to actually exist so i can buy the entire line.

tony and i made so much yummy food today. lindsay came and helped us for a little bit too. we have fruit skewers, a veggie tray, these yummy stuffed potato things with yams that tony made, 72 amazingly colourful cupcakes that i made, aaaand actually i think thats all. but its good. i love how my cupcakes turned out there are so many colours! and cherries and kisses on top. :)

anyways i have no energy to do anything so i'm giving up and going to sleep. goooodnight.


ps i had a really good, relaxed night with justin last night. i am in love with the fact that we made up and are getting along so well now, things are even better than they were before.

also i hung out with blake a couple days ago and it was actually not weird at all and we had a great conversation, he wanted to hang out tonight too but i was busy with tony. i'm glad we are good friends still.

the end, for real.

quick update!

the last couple weeks has been party party party. last night i went to like 6 different bars with leash but no one was really out so i went to some crazy dudes house with justin, james and reece and got completely ridiculous. came home and passed right out.

justin and i got in a bad fight and didn't talk for like.. i guess it was only a few days but it seemed like wayy longer. i neeeed my best friend. we got everything all talked out and things feel so much better now.

i've got weird situations going on, i've almost got everything all sorted out. i think i know what i want.

tonight i'm going to do some running around with justin and then we're gonna chill and watch movies. tomorrow i am making appetizers with tony for our party. and saturday is our party! i have a sweeet dress to wear for it i can't wait to get all prettied up.

i gotta clean my house now. peace !

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wow sooo much has happened. i haven't had time to post i've been crazy busy. i dont feel like it right now but a lot of bad stuff happened and a lot of good stuff too.

everything is crazy. i hate all boys and i just want to get drunk with alycia forever. this is my state of mind for the day. maybe later ill get the ambition to include more details but for now, nope.